Ever have those days where you figure it would be easier to just give up. Today is one of those days. Emailing back and forth with my attorney finalizing the proposed temporary orders and I wonder, it seems like it would just be easier to give up and just divorce. Of course I know realistically that the divorce would be more problematic than just the separation but today I just think maybe it would be easier to get it over with than to wait to see if we reconcile...I guess I just am very bad at waiting and feeling like I am in limbo. Limbo is not a place I ever want to be. I know it is possible to get on with your life and just put the relationship issues on the back burner, but how to do that is the question.
As stated in previous post once I am back to work it will be better because I will not have time to sit here and wonder and wait. It will also get better once I am able to attend an Al-anon meeting next week. I can meet people with similar experiences as I and get the support I need. I mean I have support from my family and my friends but I will also need support of people who are currently or have dealt with an alcoholic. Maybe I will decide that being married to an alcoholic (recovering or not) is more trouble than it is worth or maybe I will learn that it was worth the wait to be able to have the person I love be able to be a fully functional partner in this relationship. I guess only time will tell.
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