Oh my. The boys are home and are not listening as usual. I heard from my attorney two days ago, she stated that she had the decree done except for the custody plan which she was going to finish yesterday. It all should be the same as the temp orders. I know this is the right thing for me to do but it still sucks. I do love him so much, I just wish this all could have happened differently. I am sure I will always feel that way. Maybe he can get it all together, figure out who he truly is. Maybe it will work out some day in the future, maybe not. Maybe he will find the person who is perfect for him and maybe I will find the person who is perfect for me...I guess we shall see.
I have been able to sleep for the past 3 nights and I hope this continues. I don't know if he and I texting again after having not for several days and I take comfort in that. It is on a friend like basis, checking in on the boys, how our days are etc...and I hope this is something that we can continue. I don't know I still feel sad about the whole thing and catch myself for a split second thinking that maybe I should just stop it...then I think about why I can't.
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